It's 9:00pm on a Saturday night and I'm at the library and my blood sugar is exremely low. I would like to go home, but I must finish the blog for this week, otherwise I'll be thinking about it tomorrow, and I must study for o-chem tomorrow. Have you seen those commercials recently for adult attention deficit disorder? You can test yourself online. I tested negative but I thought it would be a great way to explain my incredible distractedness and disorganization this semester. Perhaps I have adult organic chemistry deficit disorder. If anyone has a link to the test for that I'm interested.

So the computer lab is closing soon. How'd that happen? I've been here since 7pm. Maybe this will have to wait. What DID people do before Google searches, I mean really?

So audience. The interesting thing i've been thinking about lately in relation to audience is how reading and writing parallels building a relationship. In a relationship we start out with superficial topics. The weather, what classes we're taking, where we're from, etc. Then we delve deeper. Politics, political stances, dreams, aspirations, past relationships. Deeper yet. Insecurities, childhood traumas, feelings about the other person. As social beings we have a very accute sense of this process and are very sensitive to disruptions of it. For exampe if you meet someone and the first thing they tell you about is their fetish for touching eye balls. Weird right?

Usually this process is a two way street. We reveal something about ourselves and the person we are building a relationship with matches that revelation with another revelation at the same level. But in a writer/reader relationship, the writer does all the revealing. As a writer I feel like consideration must be taken for the reader to not move to an intimate level to quickly, which may turn the reader away. But then there is the question of poetry? I don't know what to say about that.

My point is that there is a slight imbalance between what, in part, drives the need to write - to reveal some of the most intimate details and emotions of our lives - and what drives the need to read.

As a side note, at this point we all have a pretty imbalanced relationship with Josh. Which is why I think he needs to read to us from his book to even the terrain a bit. What do you say, Josh?